At the chod retreat with Charlie Awbery I went to, I discovered that sadness/grief are the most inaccessible emotions to me. There should be a lot for me to grieve, but I don't know how to even get started with this practice.
I'm far from an expert, but I wonder from an IFS perspective whether there's a part that's blocking you from feeling it and whether that part can be accessed and understood / loved. Alternatively, whether it's possible to attune to / feel into the numbness itself and find where in the body it's located as a way into feeling it. Also I wonder whether there is a lack of embodied safety for the grief to express itself and what circumstances it might require for you to feel that sense of safety.
At the chod retreat with Charlie Awbery I went to, I discovered that sadness/grief are the most inaccessible emotions to me. There should be a lot for me to grieve, but I don't know how to even get started with this practice.
I'm far from an expert, but I wonder from an IFS perspective whether there's a part that's blocking you from feeling it and whether that part can be accessed and understood / loved. Alternatively, whether it's possible to attune to / feel into the numbness itself and find where in the body it's located as a way into feeling it. Also I wonder whether there is a lack of embodied safety for the grief to express itself and what circumstances it might require for you to feel that sense of safety.
It's something like I feel happy and full of energy for the most part, so it's difficult to go away from that into its complete opposite.